I'm sure I've said I don't care in the past, but there was a part of me that still did. It was just another reminder of how I was still single, or a holiday that, for whatever dumb reason, caused me to set these unrealistic expectations for my boyfriend at the time.
I don't know if it's because my relationship is currently long-distance or if it's because I'm so humbled to be in a relationship where I feel like I'm constantly being doted upon...but, I actually don't care about Valentine's Day (although, I do really like those candy hearts). There's a confidence and a security and I don't need him to do something special for me on this particularly mandated day...because who he is every other day is more than enough (and in this, I already know that whatever happens/doesn't happen isn't going to disappoint).
It's a weird place to be, honestly.
It's a freeing place to be.
I feel like I should always write something about the holiday, though...considering that my blog has lots to do with love and relationships. But, I feel like it's better if you just read what I wrote last year.
Because this year, I'm just thankful.
I don't need anything more than what I have. I don't want anything more than what I have.
This year, I'm an apathetic Valentine....but I recognize that it can very much be a holiday that many struggle with and through for various reasons.
So, read on...
And don't lose sight of the things that matter infinitely more than this.
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